Portrait Of Loneliness

this is a cycles preview render. i didn't want to wait for a proper overnight render so i just settled for the preview lol. i didn't wanna add blood to this one because this is how i've been feeling lately. lonely, always upsetting people and i've since got the feeling somebody is about to take my murphy away.. i couldn't sleep a wink last night it worried me so much.

yes. i worry about it. because i have nothing else in life. my boyfriend is 5000 miles away and likes to go for days without so much as a whisper to me so im left reeling all alone for days..and now it seems even murphy is drifting away.. 

not gonna lie. it'd break my heart into dust if i saw him with another. i can't help it. and i know a lot of you feel the same about your silent hill / resident evil / tomb raider lovers.. 

i was gonna write a story for this but honestly a picture speaks 1000 words. plus i learned how to make eyes look watery and shiny in cycles. obviously some of the details are missing because its just a preview render. i wont be rendering this as a final piece, this is it. 

until i figure out why the blender engine isnt rendering transparent objects like hair, jewelry and eyelashes, im stuck with 2.49 for the time being.

so expect my shit to be relatively low quality until i get this bullshit fixed.

i feel my heart breaking and i don't even know why..